I screwed up my cello lesson last week.
I hope i'm not going to screw up the one tomorrow.
I prac more that what i did for last week's lesson.
But not as much as i promised i would.
I did lost of the piece.
I can almost play at the same speed as i'm supposed to.
But i didn't memorized it.
And my intonation sucks.
And i didn't do much scale.
I hope i don't screw up my exam.
I can't do oral.
I can't do sight reading.
I don't think i can pass.
Shit.
My mom says she's not going to let me continue learning the cello if i fail.
Shit.
I think i'm gonna screw up.
Shit.
If i fail i'll die.
I'll probably have to change cca or something.
Shit.
I'll be more screwed than the time i lost my phone.
Crap.
Carp.
Fish.
Okay, it's getting out of point.

My new com spoiled again.
Cos of the noton ghost program
My dad downloaded.
Not my fault.
But he's telling me to fix it.
I'm gonna let my bro do it.
But he's not home.

I yelled at my grandma today.
Cos my mom did something that pissed her off.
My grandma told me to scold my mom
cos they don't talk to each other.
if i did i'll get scolded by my mom
cos she don't admit that she's wrong.
but actually she's scolding my grandma.
but i have to listen to all that.
when my grandma did something wrong.
my mom tells me to scold her.
cos they don't talk to each other.
I'll get scolded by my grandma
cos she don't admit that she's wrong too.
And i ask myself.
WHY ME?

It's been a long day.
i'm tired.
And pissed.
So i can't write proper sentences
and it makes me even more pissed.