Bus Stop

It started to rain, but it wasn’t a heavy rain, just a small drizzle. On one of the busiest street, many people hurried into restaurants, inns, and any shelter within sight. After much jostling and pushing, a little black girl was pushed out of the bus stop shelter and into the cold, heartless rain. She tripped on a stone and nearly fell, but a black man caught her just in time and helped her to her feet.
Then he left as he saw his bus arrive. The little girl turned back, and saw the black man board the bus to pay the driver. Then, he got down and started to walk towards the back door, but the bus drove away before he could do so. Disappointed, the black man opened his sack to check if he had any money left. Seeing nothing inside, he started his long walk home. No one stepped forward to help him.
Another bus arrived, and the little girl saw a black man inside the bus refuse to stand up to give his seat to a white. The white man grabbed him by the collar, punched him, and, with the help of another white, threw the black man out of the bus. The black man placed his hand on his forehead to wipe away the blood, and sat at the side of the road, waiting for another bus to come. No one stepped forward to help him.
The girl stood in the rain for another few minutes, when she saw a white reaching out to take a sack of money from the black. His excuse was that blacks could not be trusted with money. For a second there was hesitation in the blacks eyes, but soon rage took over and he shouted at the white. At once, policemen were upon the black and they chased him down the street. No one stepped forward to help him.
Turning her head, the girl saw signs, many signs. Some said, “NO BLACKS”, while others read, “WHITES ONLY”. A black tried to enter one of those restaurants, and was immediately thrown out and punished. No one stepped forward to help him.
As she stood at the bus stop, many such images flashed pass and she wondered what they meant.

Senses

Lol i don't even know what i'm writing.

Take a deep breath,
Smell things you’ve never see.

Open your eyes and look,
See things you’ve never felt.

Reach out your hands and touch,
Feel things you’ve never tasted.

Stick out your tongue and savor,
Taste things you’ve never smell.

Now close your eyes and listen.

I'm not following the rules... i didn't get tagged and i'm not tagging anyone. Fair enough. i did this for fun.

1. Put iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY?
Have you ever been in love - Westlife
LOL like i'll ever say that


WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Total eclipse of heart - westlife
how come westlife keeps popping up?

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
爱太痛 - 吴克群
i'm so not in love

WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?
that's just the way we roll - jonas brother
...

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
inseparable - jonas brother
more dots...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
the great escape - boys like girls
eh?

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
小丑鱼 - 罗志祥
LOL?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Before Dawn - isaac Shepard
I'll be sleeping LOL

WHAT IS 2+ 2?
恋爱ing - mayday
I don't fail math

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
自由不变 - JJ
HUH? I don't even know who i consider my best friend...

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bad Day - Alvin and the Chipmunk
Now i'm laughing

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Burnin' Up - jonas brother
... yeah i'm screwin up

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Real to me - brian mcfadden
HUH?

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
一路向北 - jay
...

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU？
简简单单 - JJ
LOL true

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Year 3000 - jonas brother
LOL

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Miracle - Cascada
Maybe they thought i'll nv die?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Guitar Vs. Piano 1.2 - i don't know who
i don't play guitar and i dislike piano

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Like only a woman can - brian mcfadden
most of my friends are female...?

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
不能说的秘密 - Jay
i don't like secrets

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
一个人 - IDK
oh man... poor me

WHAT IS ONE THING YOU REGRET?
next plane home - daniel powter
i seldom take plane... maybe something will happen the next plan i take home？

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
好朋友 - 罗志祥
TRUE :D

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
约定 - guang liang
Hmmm....

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
离开地球的表面 - mayday
i'll take it as a no. anyway i don't plan to

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
童话 - guang liang
Eh? though it is true i don't like fairy tales...

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The Right One - Final_Round
:D

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
秘密基地 - donno
???

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
我的纪念 - donno
LOL

Somehow, i don't know how, i get the feeling that i'm making everyone hate me. How come i always screw up the start of the year?

A Diary

It's suppose to focus on the boy and the girl becoming friends and how the girl was lonely and not fitting in, but i kinda screwed it up.

24th March
I don’t like changes. Even though I know no matter what you do, there will be changes and most of the changes will not be undone, but I still don’t like them. For one, this is the first diary I’ve even had. I never thought I would have a diary, but so many things happened recently and I don’t know what I can do. My parents divorced and we moved house and stuff like that. The house is big and white and clean and neat and... I don’t know it doesn’t matter. But it does have a great view of the sea and the breeze is really nice. Anyway, I’m staying with my mom now, but apparently my dad’s pretty upset about it. Mom said that maybe I’ll have to move to stay with him, I don’t know. All I know is that I don’t want to. Guess too much changes occurring at the same time can make me freak out.
26th March
Went to school today, and I must confess I felt out of place. People just ignore me and do their own stuff. While I was introducing myself I saw this girl, she was ugly looked pretty upset. I thought she had no friends, but to my surprise, she did. But her friends doesn’t seem to notice that she’s upset. Perhaps I’m being over sensitive? At that moment I I thought to myself, if a girl like her has friends... I don’t know, there’s so much stuff happening recently I really don’t know.
28th March
Mom’s shouting on the phone, apparently dad called and they’re arguing. No friends at school yet, I just get ignored.
2nd April
I saw that ugly girl from my class this afternoon. She was standing near the cliff by the beach, and I thought she was going to commit suicide. I just stood there for god know how long staring at her in case she did. Then she just turned and left. Sometimes people do funny things.
5th April
She’s there again, at the cliff by the beach. After I saw her I went back in, and when I checked again in the late evening, she was gone.
10th April
More stuff happened. One night dad came, and I thought I could talk to him and do stuff I did before the whole divorce thing, but they started arguing again, the way they did before they divorced. Guess it never really changed anything. I locked myself in my room and... I don’t know just do stuff and ignore the world the way they ignore me. I wonder if my parents ever thought how all these stuff affects me. Perhaps they’re too busy... too busy arguing with each other and not noticing that they’re not getting anywhere.
11th April
She’s there again, I wonder what she’s doing?
12th April
I saw her again, and this time I went out to check. I hid myself, quite far away. She seems to be talking to someone, but there’s no one there. Maybe she’s talking to herself? I don’t know. Before I could find out anything else she just left.
14th April
I saw her again, and I went down. I got closer and she was talking to herself. She said stuff about getting ignored, not fitting in and things like that. Guess she’s lonely eh?
16th April
I can’t believe what happened today. I was, or so I thought, pretty well hidden while I listened to her talk (and I still don’t know why I did that) then suddenly, she just turned and, as if she knew I was there, stare straight into my eyes. I freaked out and I ran, i think I heard her call me, but I just couldn’t stop until I’m back in my room. I don’t want to go to school tomorrow.
31st October
Guess I managed to befriend that girl, and guess I didn’t need this diary for a long time, but more changes are about to come. Seems like I’m going to stay with my dad... after not meeting him for so long it just feels so wrong... but there’s not much I can do. Perhaps I’ll find myself another friend?

I didn't screw up the lesson

I screwed up my cello lesson last week.
I hope i'm not going to screw up the one tomorrow.
I prac more that what i did for last week's lesson.
But not as much as i promised i would.
I did lost of the piece.
I can almost play at the same speed as i'm supposed to.
But i didn't memorized it.
And my intonation sucks.
And i didn't do much scale.
I hope i don't screw up my exam.
I can't do oral.
I can't do sight reading.
I don't think i can pass.
Shit.
My mom says she's not going to let me continue learning the cello if i fail.
Shit.
I think i'm gonna screw up.
Shit.
If i fail i'll die.
I'll probably have to change cca or something.
Shit.
I'll be more screwed than the time i lost my phone.
Crap.
Carp.
Fish.
Okay, it's getting out of point.

My new com spoiled again.
Cos of the noton ghost program
My dad downloaded.
Not my fault.
But he's telling me to fix it.
I'm gonna let my bro do it.
But he's not home.

I yelled at my grandma today.
Cos my mom did something that pissed her off.
My grandma told me to scold my mom
cos they don't talk to each other.
if i did i'll get scolded by my mom
cos she don't admit that she's wrong.
but actually she's scolding my grandma.
but i have to listen to all that.
when my grandma did something wrong.
my mom tells me to scold her.
cos they don't talk to each other.
I'll get scolded by my grandma
cos she don't admit that she's wrong too.
And i ask myself.
WHY ME?

It's been a long day.
i'm tired.
And pissed.
So i can't write proper sentences
and it makes me even more pissed.